It would have been Better!!

Its been almost three months since i last blogged..Coming back rather after a long haitus..Its just that sometimes life takes a lot out of you crippling you from doing what you want to do and end up doing something which u never imagine!! In that sense it has also been 3 months after i had moved to a new place in the mountains of west virginia..Rather moving away from the more modernized way of life to more of a country side experience in the so called land of dreams!!

When i see myself life is sort of becoming more monotonous where i get up early in the morning dress up like a gentleman and go out to work with people some of whom are exciting while many are boring..Everyday new challenges in work and many things to learn..i do slog like a donkey and ensure that i make it up to the so called level of expectations in many cases in the end i am able to raise the bar at the right time and accomplish it!! Then i pose a question to myelf does that make me happy in anyway..Well to be honest the answer is i am not really sure about that..Life goes the same way from monday to friday with work and music in my ipod!! Weekend goes on sleeping for two days to catch up with the sleep for 5 days in a week!!

It has taken lot out of me to become a person like who i am now from the one who i was..Now all i can think of in my life is my work and things to achieve in the process of reaching high up in the ladder where many are waiting to pull my leg down when they sneak a chance and fight goes on for me to stick up to the ladder..Suddenly a feeling sets in where i realize that i am missing something which i really dont know what it is but all i know there is a void which has left hopeless emptiness in me and makes me to simply forget everything thing from keeping in touch with the loved ones to falling in love to checking out a beautiful girl to playing sports and watching all those cricket,soccer matches admiring the game..All these feelings seems to have just faded away!!

I do feel when i see people wont it have been good if things had happened the way i wanted them to be in various contexts..Then a thought crossed my mind in relation to a mail which i read recently wont it be good if life was in reverse like what Brad Pitt had in "Curious case of benjamin button" born as old man, grow up to middle age man with kids, then turn up young partying,playing and tripping hard like hell..Fall in love,bunk classes and then one fine day end up finishing off in a orgasm..;))..It would have certainly made things much better to what it is right now..Well as the saying goes there are two important days in a person life one would be the day when you are born and second one is the day when you realize the reason for you being born..Sadly for many the second day never comes..But i do hope it happens for me.. ;))